Thursday, May 10, 2007

Time For a Few More Dents

It's time again for me to put on the that dull and dented armor and take a few more beatings.  The one thing I am good at is being strong for others.  I can be there for you when you need me and I'll stand there and hold you up when all you want to do is fall down.

Now I find myself in an odd situation.  How can you be there for someone who is afraid of ever really depending on anyway?  How can you earn the real trust of someone who is just waiting for the next heart break, who can't let themself believe that the chance is still worth taking?

All I can do is be there, and in being there hope that it is enough.  I'll  be the best I can, which is admittedly imperfect.  I can't be other than what I am.  I can't do things by half measures. 

I'll do what I have to in order to prove that I am not the past.  I am not like everyone else, similarities though there may sometimes be.  I am me, and no one else.  I play by my rules, and no others.  I don't break my promises, even the ones I'm released from keeping.