Monday, February 27, 2006

Robert's Picks

Some fuck-nut reset my counter.  I hate when that happens.  Fucking AOHell.

What I'm reading:  The First Crusade by Steven Runciman (good...non-fiction)

                High Druid of Shannara: Staken by Terry Brooks (good...still)

                How the West Was Won by Louis L'Amour (good)


My dvd pick of the week:  Deadwood, the complete first season (excellent)

What I'm watching on tv:  CNN (good, bad, ugly...that's the news)

What I'm listening to:  Sounds of Summer by the Beach Boys  (excellent greatest hits cd)

Sunday, February 26, 2006

First SCA Meeting

Most of the past week and half or so has been busy, busy but in a boring, boring sort of way.  So I thought I'd skip straight to the interesting stuff.

Today I skipped out on going to sleep and went to my first SCA group meeting with my friend from work, Rob.  Next month we're going to a war in Mississippi called Gulf Wars. 

Anyway, the meeting was pretty informal, but interesting.  I meet a bunch of people and got to see some of the heavy weapons practice.  Since that is my main interest, it was interesting to watch a couple of guys fight with swords (wooden) and shield in armor. 

I won't be able to fight at Gulf Wars (at least I don't think).  But I will have an opportunity to get armor there for a pretty good price.  My biggest investment will be a helm, which will cost me a couple hundred bucks.  Hopefully I will have plenty of money when I go down there, but that mainly depends on WalMart and their check distribution.

Clothing shouldn't be a problem.  One of the main guys in the group, Sir Robert, offered to sew any clothing I needed if I get him the material.  Me and Rob are going to look at material in WalMart tonight.  I don't really have any money, but maybe I can figure something out.  We'll see.  It shouldn't be more that five bucks, anyway.

Anyway, I need to eat something and then try to get a couple of hours of sleep.  I'm going to be the walking dead tomorrow...and I'm supposed to go to class.  I don't know if I'll be able too.  I have not slept that much lately. 

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Ah, breakfast!

I just got home from having breakfast with a couple of guys at work.  It's a weekly tradition we've gotten into.  We go to this little hole in the wall diner (it's small but really nice).  It has this whole fifties soda fountain set-up.  It's a real nice place.  Anyway, the main reason we go it because of the really hot waitress that works there in the morning.  She's good for a few laughs too.  I was thinking about asking her to get a drink with me sometime but then I noticed the huge rock on her finger.

Anyway, breakfast was good.  I really enjoyed it.  It's nice to do something besides come home alone.  I'm watching Goodfellas right now.  It's a great movie.  I was thinking about it all night, so I came home and put it in.  I should probably go to sleep soon though.  I hate that I have to work tonight.

Next month I am going to this SCA event in Mississippi called Gulf Wars with a guy from work.  We were going to camp, but we couldn't get the cash in time to register so we are going to get a hotel room for the time we are down there.  It should be fun.  I'm going to have to get some things, but I think the main guy in our group (who I have yet to meet) is going to lend me some clothes and look into getting me some armor.  I'm kind of nervous, but definitely looking forward to it.

School has been okay.  We had our first test last week.  They are all take home test, and we were allowed to submit them electronically, so that's what I did.  It didn't seem that hard, so I hope I did good. 

Work has sucked, as usual, but that's okay.  I'll get over it, I guess.  Other than that, things have been pretty average.  I haven't done too much.  I'm waiting for money, mainly.  I'm expecting my income tax return check soon, and I'm getting a bonus from WalMart in a couple of weeks.  That will be nice because it will allow me to pay my grandfather back and take care of some other things as well.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I don't like this...

She's clingy.  And she's just not my type.  I'm in this for the fun of it, but the fun is wearing off quickly.  She says she isn't looking for another serious relationship, but everything she is doing implies otherwise.  And I don't want that.

I don't even want to be seeing anyone exclusively right now.  Maybe if it was a different person, that would be different, but that person would probably also be someone I was more into.  This has been fun, and interesting, but I'm just not into it.  I feel like I'm doing it more for her than I am for me, and I don't like that. 

I just going to have to be blunt.  I don't like being mean, but she hasn't really listened to what I've said when I talked to her before.  I don't want to be involved like this.  I don't want to feel like I constantly have to be around her.  I don't want that with anyone.  I need my space.

I mean, I spend a day to myself and then tonight she acts like I shouldn't be tired.  I worked all night, didn't sleep much today, and still managed to do pretty well in the bedroom.  I probably could have done more.  In fact, I know I could have, but I she kept on and on and wouldn't leave me alone so I just couldn't get into it.  That's no fun.  And then there is the plain fact that she is just not that exciting.  Sorry.  But it's true.  Fuck.  I'm through with this. 

I need someone who makes me feel on fire.  She doesn't do it.  I don't even care.  It's more of a "I'm doing cause I got nothing better to do situation" than anything else.  I want to be able to do what I want when I want to, and if I go fucking that up I want it to be for the right reasons.  She isn't that.  She's just using me as a substitute for something she doesn't have, but I can't be that something and I don't want to be.  Enough is enough. 

Why o why can't a fling be just a fling?  Why does it have to turn into something else? 

Thursday, February 9, 2006

My Yesterday

Any complaints about the new text?  I'm always open to criticism. 

Anyway, yesterday was a pretty good day.  I never did get to sleep.  I was up all night and day, except for a thirty minute cat nap before I shaved and headed off for school.  I did a lot of reading for the most part.  I've found that if I read during commercials and boring parts I can watch the shows I like and enjoy my book.  I do love to multi task.

I went to class and was extremely tired.  Stephanie was there, so I finally got my book back.  It's a good thing too because we got our first test today.  It's a take home exam that is due back next Wednesday.  There is no class Monday.  I think Stephanie and I are going to get together some time to work on it together.

I actually ended up feeling pretty good today, except for being tired as worn out plow horse.  But it wasn't so bad.  I guess I'm okay now.  My primal instincts kind of took over, but being the gentleman that I am I lined out my worries/situation so that there would be no misunderstandings.  There probably will be anyway, but I've covered my ass as best I could. 

Anyway, when I got home from school I stopped by WalMart, I am ashamed to admit, to get some groceries.  I got a couple of nice inch and half rib eye steaks and some KC Masterpiece marinade and broiled those bad boys.  I also made some mashed potatoes and Mac&Cheese, along with some French bread (alright, so I only sliced the bread...I wish I could make it fresh).  It was one of the best dinners I've had in a long time. 

While I ate I watched Wedding Crashers.  I finished before the movie was over, and since I got a call from my new lady friend soon after I finished eating I have not yet had a chance to finish it.  I'll probably do that after I finish writing this.  So far it hasn't been as good as it was made out to be by others, but I'll finish it before making a final call.  Oh, and of course the four dvds I rented, including this one, are now late.  Fuck it.  I never rent again until I can pay off the last late fee anyway, and I also have afree rental.

After dinner was nice too.  I guess my situation could be better, but what the hell?  I've got nothing better to do at the moment.  Things will change eventually.  I know they will.  This just doesn't have that lasting quality.  I think I deserve to live for the moment for once in my miserable life, though.

I'm actually feeling hungry again.  Round two with the Rib Eye?  Maybe. 

Tuesday, February 7, 2006


I don't know.  I'm feeling weird right now.  I may have gotten involved in something I should have avoided.  I'm not in an emotional state where I can offer someone anything in that department.  I'm not sure if I'm being asked for that. 

I don't know what I want.  Or, I do, but it's something I can't have.  So do I want anything?  I don't know what I'm doing.  I'm probably going to regret it.  I just get that feeling of inevitability. 

I'm twenty-one.  I can't get involved long term unless there is something in it for me long term.  I don't think there is.  It's something to talk about.  Something that has to be made clear.  I just hope I'm not too late.

I haven't made any promises, so I can't break them.  I'm not going anywhere right now, but eventually I will.  I don't know where or when, but I'm not ready to stay.  Not with these cards.  They're not good enough.   That may seem cold, but it's also true. 

Fuck.  Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.  Maybe not. 

This isn't what I'm looking for.  Not in the long term.



Monday, February 6, 2006

Robert's Picks

It's raining.  It rained all night and it's been raining all day.  I hate it.  It sucks.  It's cold.  I'm tired, but I can't sleep.  I complain too much.  Stop and smell the roses.  Where are the fucking roses...

What I'm reading:  The Bear and the Dragon by Tom Clancy (good)

                             Death in the Silent Places by Peter Hathaway Capstick (good)

My dvd pick of the week:  Lord of War (excellent)

What I watched on tv:  the Super Bowl (it sucked!)



Saturday, February 4, 2006

It's Saturday

Which really means nothing to me, since I have to work tonight.

Yesterday I went to sleep early and got up in the mid-afternoon.  I had some extra cash so I bought a couple pair of Levi's that fit right.  I also rented some movies.  I watched Serenity (which was a pretty good Scifi flick) and Lord of WarLord of War was really good.  I expected it to be more of a comedy than anything else, but it's actually a pretty serious movie.  I recommend it to everyone.  You don't really get the point until the end, but then you really get it.  I liked it a lot, and I may buy it.

Work last night really sucked.  I hate that place.  After work was cool though.  I went to eat breakfast at this little 50's theme diner called Little B's.  The food was good, and so was the atmosphere.  I went with a couple of guys I work with, Shane and Josh, who wanted me to see this girl who works there.  She's definitely a head turner.  I'll probably be going back next Saturday. 

I'm also glad I went there cause it seemed like a cool place to go hang out.  Nice place to take a girl just to chill. 

Other than that, I have not been up too much.  I've been reading a lot mainly.  I'm also working on a couple of short stories.  One is a Western I started a long time ago.  I was reading back over it, and I really like where I was going so I think I'm going to finish it.  Maybe do a couple with that character.  I like the Western setting cause I can do a lot there that I can't really do in the modern world, but it's not as out there as scifi or fantasy. 

I'm really dying to play some poker.  I wish I could find a game around home.  I'm planning on playing tomorrow night and Tuesday night.  I meant to last week, but of course I feel asleep/forgot.  Typical.

Wednesday, February 1, 2006

I really like wine...

I'm feeling pretty good right now.  I've had a nice meal (spaghetti...and half a bottle of wine...and garlic bread), I watched a good movie (Bad Boys II), and I'm feeling about ready for bed. 

Today was okay.  I did a lot of cleaning up and picking up around my apartment.  It needed it, so I did it.  I also did a lot of laundry; changed the sheets on my bed and what not. 

I have to admit, the only thing that is missing is someone to finish off the night with.  But I'll get over it.  I've been up since 3:30 this morning, so I'm pretty tired.  Probably too tired for what I'd like to do.  Okay.  Maybe not that tired.  But you get the idea.

Class was okay today.  I'm really liking the subject (philosophy of law).  I think I'm really heading in the right direction with wanting to go to law school.  Anyway.  Stephanie didn't show up for class.  She didn't bring me my book yesterday so I figured I would get it in class today.  Didn't happen.

I called her after class.  Got her voice mail.  I left her a message.  She called me back but I missed the call.  She apologized about a million times for missing class and said she didn't mean to kidnap my book.  She wanted to know when she could get it back to me.  I told her whenever, as long as it's before next Monday.  I doubt that will be tonight, unless she is in the area.

Well, my clothes dryer's buzzer just went off so I think I'll go hang and fold some clothes.  Maybe I'll do another load too.  Or maybe I'll just go to bed.  I'd like to go to sleep in a good mood for once. 

I'll keep the rest of what I'd like to do to myself for the time being....

If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?

I used to play this game in high school.  A bunch of us would sit around and try to come up with the best possible three wishes.  I always enjoyed it, and it was fun to see what people came up with.  So, what would you wish for if you had three wishes?

Your wishes can be as complex or simple as you want them to be.  But you only have three, no infinite wishes wish.  And the Aladdin rules apply (You can't wish to kill anyone, bring someone back from the dead, or make someone fall in love with you).  Oh, and you must remain human.  Wishing to be God, or a god, would negate that.

I'll go first:

Wish #1-Eternal youth and the ability to pass this on to other people as I see fit.

Wish #2-Physical invincibility (I can't be hurt in a fight or by sickness, accidents, etc.  This doesn't mean I couldn't be beaten in a mental challenge or game of skill.)

Wish #3-The ability to touch any book, absorb the knowledge it contains, and be able to remember and comprehend it all.

So, who is next?

Oh, why the hell not?

69 odd Questions ... GO!

1) Are your parents married or divorced?
They were never married.  It was a fling, I was an accident.  And then mommy went on to have five more...accidents I mean.  Some people never learn.  It's a fucking pill you take once a day.  How fucking hard is that?

2) Vegetarian?
Ha!  Not on your life.  I need mean to survive.
3) Heaven?
No, definitely going to Hell.

4) Come close to dying?
Yeah.  Check out my mid-December entries to get the story.

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7?
A watch.  I used to wear this Celtic cross ring I have, but I lost a lot of weight and now it's too small.

6) Are you eating?
No, but I just finished some Sweet & Sour Chicken.

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
I don't eat anything green unless it's candy.

8) Makeup?
This is the second question definitely not meant for a guy. 

9) Were you the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationship?
Dumper.  That's all I'm saying about it.

10) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
I could think of a few things I would fix/alter.

11) What do you wear to bed?
Bed?  Nada.  Couch?  Whatever I was wearing when I turned on the tv.

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?
Every damned day. 
13) Can you roll your tongue?
I can do all sorts of interesting things with my tongue.

14) Pluck your eyebrows?
That's just wrong.

15) What kind of watch(es)?
Two Fossils and a Vestal with the black wristband (the big belt buckle-y one)

16) Hair color?
Dark blonde.  I hate it.  So I keep it short, like Marine short.

17) Future child's name?
I really want a Jr. but I'd never saddle a kid with my middle name.  So, Richard Hannibal or Robert Andrew for a boy and Mara Jade or Cassandra for a girl.

19) Do you snore?
I'm sure, but it used to be so much worse before I had my tonsils out.  I would literally wake up the whole house.

20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go?
Europe or Japan
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Fuck no.

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
Buy a 2007 Shelby Mustang GT, of course

23) Gold or silver?
Silver.  Gold is pretentious.

24) Hamburger or hot dog?
Both, I've got a big and diverse appetite.

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?

26) Beach, city, or country?
City, city, city, city.  I need light shining into my windows from the street lamps at night and noise.  Too much quiet and I feel like I'm the only person left alive.

27) What was the last thing you touched?
Besides the keyboard.  You don't want to know the answer to that, DO YOU?

28) Where do you eat?
Wherever it's comfortable.  I always liked the edge of the bed.

29) When's the last time you cried?
Some thing we put behind ourselves for a reason.
30) Have you loved somebody so much it made you cry?
Oh, fuck off with the crying questions. 

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
How much you offering?

32) Ever been involved with the police?

33) Believe in Santa?

34) Do you talk in your sleep?
How should I know?

35) Beach or pool?

36) Can you cross your eyes?

37) What's your favorite song at the moment?
"Bodies" by Drowning Pool.  I'm in one of those mean, angry phases.

38) Window seat or aisle?
Which one is next to the cute girl?

39) Ever met any famous bands/singers?

40) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship?

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Only dorks cut their spaghetti.

42) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
Oprah has more money.  If I have to choose....I choose money.

43) Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?
Why wouldn't I?  It would depend on whether I had changed my identity, of course.

44) How long does your shower last?
I get out when the water starts to get cold, and sometimes I stay longer.  It just depends on the company.

45) Do you drive a stick?
Not since I was fourteen.  Unless you count farm equipment, and that was over a year ago.

46) Cake or ice cream?
Both at the same time.  That's like asking, "Angelina Jolie or Keira Knightley?"
47) Self-conscious?
Most people are, but not to the extent that I can be.  But it comes and goes.  I tend to be an arrogant prick (mostly to cover the fact that I am self-conscious).

48) What time do you get up?
I got up at Three-thirty AM today. 

49) Have you ever given money to a bum?
If a bum had money, he wouldn't be a bum.  Why do we always have to change people?  Why can't a person just be who they are?

50) When was your first crush?
It was probably one of my youngest aunt's teenage friends.  They liked to look at me and say, "If you were only ten years older..."  I couldn't help but think, "What's wrong with me now?"  Hey, that could be the early roots of my insecurity.  I've never been good enough for women.   Damn.

51) Where do you wish you were?
Counting my millions after winning the Main Event at the World Series of Poker.

52) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Not that I know of.  But if I do, I'll try and make it quick.  One clean blow is enough.

53) Ever been given a ring?
Actually, yes.  I broke it punching someone repeatedly in the head.

54) 54 died, correct?
I don't get it.

55) Last gift you received?
A small brown leather journal.

56) Last sport you played?
Does swimming count? 

57). Things you spend a lot of money on?

58) Where do you live?
Fultondale,'s right outside Birmingham.

59) High School you attend(ed)?
Corner High

60) Last wedding attended?
My friend John's.  Two or three years ago.  I remember the bachelor party better.

61) Favorite fast food restaurant?
I don't do fast food anymore.

62) Where do you work?
WalMart, also known as The Evil Empire.

63) Can you cook?
Very well.

64) Most hated food:

65) Can you sing?
Sure.  The real question is, "Can you sing well?"

66) Last kiss?
Does ass kissing count?  I'm trying to get some better off days at work.

67) Last concert attended?
City Stages in Birmingham about two years ago.  Fuel Friday night and Kid Rock the nest.  It was great, but that was the first and so far only one.

68) Favorite Alcoholic drink:
Wastin' away in Margarita ville.

69) Current crush?
Her name is Ellen.  I think.  It could be Helen.  I didn't get to do more than ask her name and tell her she's beautiful before she was gone.  Her mother was waiting (yes, I'm sure...but no, she hasn't been back...leave me alone.).