Sunday, September 17, 2006

Don't Sweat the Little Stuff

You know, there are some things you could get pissed off about.  Put what's the point, huh?  Let it go.  Just let it go.  Take away the good things.

For instance, I could get pissed off about my weekend, or I could focus on the good parts and be happy about.  I choose the good. 

So, I take away from this weekend the memory of lips as soft as rose petals.  And I'll ignore the fact that they probably belonged to a gold digger.

Come on, you know you want to laugh at me...

Come on...

Just a little chuckle?

I Need to Explain This

I need to explain something to someone, but since she isn't talking to me at the moment I'll explain it to my journal. 

I don't mean to be a jerk.  I'm not being some petulant man-child who's angry because he can't get in your pants.  I'd like to, but that's besides the point.  I like you.  I don't know why.  'Why' doesn't matter. 

I know I'm never going to get you, and that doesn't matter either.  You're not the first and I'm sure you won't be the last.  I'm just glad I'm not kidding myself about you.  I did that in the past, and it was bad.  I'm honest when it comes to you.  I know there is nothing there.

I proved last night that I'm not the type of guy who's an asshole because he doesn't get what he wants.  I proved it to someone else, and not you, but that doesn't matter.  I proved it to myself. 

I'm to tired for this shit.  I don't understand you or anyone else.  I just want what I've always wanted and I don't know where to look for it.  I don't want it from you.  I don't know that I want it from anyone.  I just want it.

This doesn't make any sense.  Nothing does in life. 

Saturday, September 16, 2006


I had a pretty good night tonight.  I went out to this redneck bar I hang out at sometimes and had a few drinks.  I met someone my friend works with and we hit it off, I guess.  I bought her a drink and she got my phone number. 

Anyway, I came home intending to hit the sack and guess who called me?  Well, I went and hung out with her a little while.  It was a fun way to top out the night.  She has two beautiful dogs.  I like dogs, and I think her dog's liked me.

Anyway, we hung out and then she sent me on my merry way.  But she said she'd like to see me again, and she was concerned that I might be mad.  I wasn't.  Hey, I would have rather she had me stay, but I'll not complain when a lady acts like a lady. 

I'd like to see her again too.  It would be nice.

Funny, I never thought I'd be happy about a girl telling me it was time to hit the road.  I guess that's mostly due to the fact that she wanted me to stay.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Uncomfortable Moments

I hate those uncomfortable moments in life.  You know the ones.  Their those moments when you learn something you really didn't want know.  Or, it's more like you know it, but you have not had it confirmed so you can ignore it.  And then it comes up, and you just have to deal with it. 

Anyway, I had one of those today.  It wasn't so bad, but it brought up a lot of old memories and jealousy from high school.  The shit doens't bother me, but like I said, it was uncomfortable for a minute there.  Still is, I guess.  Oh, well.  It'll be alright.

I'm reading The Black Dahlia by James Ellroy.  It's a pretty good book.  I like this man's style.  He's very down and dirty.  His characters are human, and as such, flawed.  I like that because it allows me to see a lot of myself in the characters.  I'm reading the book mainly because I want to see the movie.  But I like to read the book if there is one before I see the movie.  The books usually better. 

I hate waiting.  I'm  waiting for my second class of the day.  My last two classes are canceled so I get to go home and get some sleep after.  That'll be nice.  I tried calling my friend Jen to see if she wanted to hang out today, but no answer.  She's probably sleeping.  That girl parties a little to hard sometimes.  Fuck it, she's having a bad time so I can understand.

I had lunch with my friend Cheryl (she's the one I know from high school).  She had a bunch of test today and she was worried about her last one.  I'm sure she'll do okay, she's always been smart.  It's nice to have someone to talk too. 

It's funny, I actually had a crush on her in high schoool.  I never saw anything coming of it then.  I don't now, so I don't know why I brought it up.  Okay, so maybe I see a possibility.  But I doubt it.  I'm a friend, and so she can talk to me.  And I can provide some answers.  But not all.  I wish I had all the answers.  And I wish I was still as naive as I used to be.  It was nice to believe in perfection, once. 

Oh, well.  It's past time to give up childish things.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Busy Busy!

It seems like I don't have much time for anything lately.  All I do is work or go to school.  I'm happy to be back in school, but to say it hasn't been a strain would be a total lie. 

How about a joke?  What kind of bees give milk?  The answer:  Boo Bees!


So, what's new?  Hmm, I broke up with my girlfriend.  Bascially, I don't won't to have a serious relationship long-distance.  It was puttiing to much strain on me and only causing me to feel resentment toward my girlfriend, so, realizing this, I decided the best thing I could do would be to end it.  So I did.

This week I've got a lunch date with a friend who I have not seen in a while.  She graduated from UAB last Spring and I am hoping to catch up with her. 

My classes have been good so far.  I actually understand what is going on in my Philosophy courses, so that's a good sign considering it's my Major. 

Work sucks, as it always does.  I need to find a better job, but school puts a strain on the schedule I can work.  I've also been thinking of getting another part-time job one day a week on Saturdays.  I don't know where yet, but I'd like it to be somewhere that would offer some good employee discounts.  Maybe a clothing store, or a book store. 


Saturday, September 2, 2006

I hate Sony!

Sony announced a new product in January.  It's called the Sony Reader.  I don't have the time or skills to drop a link on you, so google.

I really, really, really want to buy one of these.  I mean really.  This is a wonderful piece of technology.  I absolutely love it. 

Basically, this thing allows you to read ebooks without having to lug around a computer.  It's about the size of a paper back, and it uses eInk technology so that it is as visible as paper.  You can read it indoors and outdoors and still see the screen clearly.  Anyone who has used a computer outside or had sun shining on your monitor knows how great this is.

And if you love reading, you can see the appeal of this thing.  It is the reading world's answer to the iPod.  I read multiple books at once, so it would allow me to carry everything I am reading in a small package.  And for those who don't read like me, I know damn well how annoying it is to be somewhere and finish a book...and then not have another to pick up, or the next of a trilogy or duology, etc. 

The Reader was announced in January, with a release date for spring.  It has since been moved up to fall.  The last I've heard that it will be available in time for the holidays.  I'm tired of waiting, and I hope Sony can keep the deadline this time.  I really want to get my hands on one of these things.  I suggest anyone who reads regularly go check the specs out.  It's quite nice.

And I'm so tired of waiting.