Sunday, February 27, 2005

Whole lot of nothing

Well, the first thing I did today was to go into WalMart and finish up my training CBLs.  I was there from nine till about twelve-thirty.  It was not too bad, just boring as hell.  I came after that, ate, watched some tv, read, played a little Age of Empires II, and then I went grocery shopping.

I made myself some steak and rice with gravey for dinner.  It was pretty good, I guess.  Since I finished eating I've been doing a combination of playing on the computer, watching tv, and doing my laundry.  Fun, fun.  Oh, well.  I need to keep myself busy.  I'm staying up all night tonight so that I sleep tomorrow during the day and be fresh for work.  The challenge begins now.

Stephanie called me last night a little after eleven.  I had called her earlier last night to see if she wanted to hang out.  I got her voice mail (of course!).  Anyway, she said she had to drive half way to Atlanta to get one of her friends.  Apparently, said friend was visiting her dad and her car broke down.  He drove her half way and Stephanie met her in Anniston or somewhere around there.

I talked to Stephanie for a little while and then she went to bed.  At least she returns my calls now.  That's kind of nice.  I'd really like to show her my apartment, and intoduce her to John and Jennifer.  Someday.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Feeling a little down...

I'm feeling a little down today.  I have pretty much all day unless I was reading or really into a game or something.  I decided to sleep in today since it will probably be my last Saturday that I don't have to work.  I needed the sleep.  I had this long dream that I was on the run.  It's kind of set the mood for my whole day.

John came over and we watched some tv for a little while.  The I rode with him to his in-laws' house to meet Jennifer.  He also helped them with their new dryer.  After that we road to his house.  Jeremy rode down there with Jeremy.  I was a little nervous being back in "the valley" as we call it.  I don't like going back there.  We only stayed long enough for Jennifer to change clothes.

We went and ate at Chick-Fil-A.  I had not had it in a while so I thought I'd give it another chance.  I tried the chicken strips for a change too.  I don't if it was just me, but they tasted odd.  I didn't like them.  I wasn't that hungry anyway.

We left Chick-Fil-A with no particular destination in mind.  We went by Movie Gallery but couldn't find anything to rent.  Then we headed towards Birmingham, the mall, etc.  We ended up calling information and finding out where this "novelty" store called Love Stuff was.  We spent a little time in there browsing.  Jennifer found some Playboy shorts she said she liked.  She'll only wear shorts that are extremely short.  No complaints here.

After that we came back to my apartment and watched a little more tv.  Jennifer also gave me a haircut.  I was in dire need of one.  I feel much better now.  I'm going to work for a few hours tomorrow.  Hopefully I can go in at nine and be out by one in the afternoon.  I'm just going to finish up my CBL's and it should not take more than four hours, I hope.  I'll stay longer if I have too.

Friday, February 25, 2005

The First Day

My first day at work went smoothly.  It was not bad at all.  At nine I went in with four others and we did a bunch of paper work.  Then we walked around the store to see where everything was.  After that we watched three of the dumbest videos I've seen since high school. 

We went to lunch at 11:45, Linda (the personnel lady) told us to take our fifteen minute break with our lunch our.  At 1:00 we came back and did CBLs (Computer Based Learning).  They were annoying as hell and tedious, but I guess I need to know a lot of the information they have.  I worked on those until 5:00 but everyone else left by 4:00.  I'm going in tomorrow to finish those up.  I might have to do some Sunday too. 

My first working day will be Monday night.  I have to go in, tell them who I am, and get a schedule.  I'm probably going to stay up all Sunday night, sleep until around 2:30 monday, go to class, and then maybe take a nap before work.  It should be interesting.

Thursday, February 24, 2005


Today started out kind of nice.  I woke okay.  Stephanie called me a few minutes before I left for class to ask me a question while she was studying.  She had to make up our last Existentialsim test.  Classes were okay, but boring.  On my way home I called Stephanie to ask her how she thought she did.  She said she probably made a B on it.  She'll find out next Wednesday.

Tomorrow is the day I start work.  I'm nervous as hell, but it's not really all from that.  My grandfather called me this afternoon.  He wanted to know where my $25,000 CD (certificate of deposit) went.  It was in our safe deposit box, but I took it and cashed it when I moved out.  I needed the money, not all of it, but it was all mine.  Most of it is gone now.  I've been living off it since I moved out.  I had to furnish an apartment, pay rent, and pay a lot of bills with it.  I also used part to get a new car.  It's my only luxury now. 

Anyway, he wasn't happy.  He wants it back.  Too bad for him.  But I'm still nervous about it.  He called me a thief.  Bastard.  I had every right to it.  And I needed it.  I feel like I'm trying to rationalize, but I'm just trying to explain to myself and everyone else that I had every right to it.  Hell, I couldn't have cashed in the CD if I hadn't.  Fuck.  I hate when he makes me feel like this.

He's done nothing but verbally abuse me for nearly ten years, and when I get sick of it and take off he makes me feel like an asshole.  There is no reason I should let him get to me this way, but I can't help it.  He's been the source of almost all my guilt for a long time.  I hate guilt.  But life goes one.

I also set up an appointmet with an attorney to discuss my options on a loan my uncle is not repaying.  It really pisses me off to have to do this.  NEVER DO BUSINESS WITH FAMILY!!!  I'm probably going to have to forclose.  I don't care anymore.  I'll sell the house and the property and pay my damned taxes and tuition. 

I really do have one fucked up family.  At least I got the hell out of there.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

The Good:  Last Friday I started Tom Clancy's Executive Orders.  It's 1,358 pages long and I'm on page 828.  Needless to say, it is excellant.  I'm really enjoying it.  It's been a long time since I've read any Tom Clancy and now I remember why he is one of my favorite authors.  I also got a pleasant surprise in the mail today.  State Farm sent me a refund of $62.70.  It's not much, but every little bit counts now that I'm living alone. 

The Bad:  I got a call from Linda in personnel at WalMart yesterday.  I'm scheduled to go in for my orientation Friday at 9:00 AM.  I know I shouldn't  consider starting my job a bad thing, but I'm a little nervous about it.  I've never had any job before, let alone a full time one.  It's going to be rough until I get used to it.  It will be better in the summer when I won't have classes though. 

The Ugly:  I had a History of Modern Europe midterm Monday.  I had to wing it, much as I hate doing that.  The essay I had to write covered so much that I couldn't get it down on paper before hand without starting over a hundred times.  I finished it though, even though I hurried the last bit.  I spent every minute of the hour and fifteen minutes I had on the test.  I had to do some ID's and multiple choice after the essay.  I hope I did okay, but it could be extremely ugly.

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Friday and Saturday

Friday I didn't do too much until after John got off work.  Then I went to his house to wait for Jennifer to get home from the gym.  After she took a shower we went to our friend Logan's house.  Me and John cleared most of a bottle of Gentleman Jack, but I found myself unable to get drunk.  I was very dissappointed.  Over all, it sucked. 

Jeremy had some girl he knows call me and she was supposed to come with him, along with a couple of other girls but he decided to spend the night there so they didn't come.  One more dissappointment.  I ended up sleeping a in uncomfortable recliner. 

We woke up early and came home.  John dropped me off around eight and I took a shower and went back to bed.  He called and woke me up around nine to ask if I wanted to catch a movie.  I said sure.  Around twelve he called and woke me up to tell me he and Jennifer were on their way.

I drove and we ate at Ruby Tuesday's.  We all ate the same thing, Roma Chicken Pasta with no tomatoes.  It was really good.  After that we went to the Rave and saw Constantine.  It was, in my opinion, a really good movie.  I don't think the critics liked it, but they tend to trash anything that isn't "art-sy." 

After the movie we went to the mall for a little while.  We didn't stay near as long as we had expected.  Then we went a couple of other stores before rounding the night off at WalMart grocery shopping.  We came back to my apartment and watched Chris Rock on Comedy Central.  John fell asleep on my couch for a minute or two and then woke back up.  I think Jennifer wanted to stay a little longer but John decided they needed to go home. 

Now I've got nothing to do.  I don't feel like sleeping, eating, reading, or watching tv.  So I got online.  Now what?

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday started out good and then slowly descended into utter boredom.  I got my exam back in Existentialism.  I made an 87 on it.  I was happy with it.  Sure, an A would have been better but so could have my performance.  Stephanie showed up  to class late, and I made fun of her.  Later she ate one of my I ate one of her pretzels.  I think I was cheated.

After school I came home and watched a couple of movies.  The first was Into The Sun.  It was okay because of the action but the plot and story pretty much sucked.  I watched one or two others but I'm not sure which.  John and Jennifer came over letter and Jennifer cooked tacos.  It's kind of nice having someone cook for me in my own place.  

After eating we went driving around, bored out of our minds.  We stopped by our friend Logan's house.  I think we are going to party there Friday night.  That should be fun.  I'll have to cough up some cash for a bottle of Gentleman Jack though.  After Logan's house we went to Target.  No, I don't know why.  Anyway, it turned out to be a good thing.  I bought some movies:  3 Clint Eastwood westerns and Get Shorty.  The sequel to Get Shorty is coming out soon.  It's called Be Cool.  John's never seen Get Shorty, so we will probably watch it tonight if he comes over.  Jennifer has class tonight and I'm not sure she'd be interested anyway.

Today has been okay so far.  I skipped my Psych 101 class.  There is not much point in going since it is an intro. class.  Anyway, I went Tuesday.  I did go to my Philosophy of Science class though.  I got my first assignment back.  I made a B on it.  So it's been okay.  I also got my first phone bill. 

Bills are evil.  But you what is even worse?  Connection fees!  They suck.  Forty dollars to flip a switch and make my phone work.  Cocksuckers.  Oh, well.  People working for the phone company got bills too. 

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Nothing Much

I have not really done anything the last two days.  Yesterday I went to my one class and then read and watched movies for the rest of the day.  Today I did pretty much the same thing, except John came over after work and Jennifer after class.  We rented Shark Tale, a not so subtle social commentary on homosexuality.  I'm surprised Southern parents weren't up in arms about it.

I'm planing on linking my journal after I post this.  I have not been getting my alerts either.  When I signed on I simply could not believe Avril had been online all day and not written a single entry.  I was correct in that belief.  I hate AOL.

Tomorrow I have Existentialism at 11.  I'm hoping Stephanie shows up and manages to make it through the entire class.  She was still feeling a little sick last week.  It was weird, because the day before I had been over her house so she could copy my notes and she seemed fine.  One of those things I guess. 

I'm planning on doing some entries on magic sometime soon.  I want to work up a compulsion spell.  I have an idea for two types.  One works on me, making me appear to be more trustworthy and worth listening too.  The other works on a specific person and makes them want to do whatever I want.  They're both still in the brainstorming stage for now.

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Giving in

Giving into the possiblitly that there is someone out there with more knowledge about such things than me, I bought a set of dishes that matches the one I already have.  I also bought some mixing bowls and cutlery.  Those last two I planned on buying anyway.

I cooked my own breakfast this morning.  I made bisquits and gravey.  It was quite good.  I have enough left over for breakfast for a couple of days.  I had dinner at John's parents house.  They cooked hot dogs and hamburgers and invited me over with John and Jennifer yesterday.  It was nice.  After eating we watched Around the World in 80 Days.  It was pretty good for a Disney movie.

I have a lot of reading to do tomorrow for class.  It shouldn't be too bad though.  At least it is history, something I'm interested in.  I skipped this particular class both times I was supposed to go last week.  It was a class I can easily catch up in though and I just was not in the mood.  Moving into a new place had me stressed and tired.

I don't know what was wrong with me last night.  I just felt horrible.  I read a little bit before bed and felt better after a while.  I guess it was nothing serious.  I hate feeling sick though.  Oh, well.  It passed, whatever it was.  I can't believe I'm complaining about a tummy ache.  I'm usually a tough guy about being sick.  I guess it's a result of never really having a mother around and having a grandfather who was anything but sympathetic.  I always had to tough it out.  Makes me afraid of how I might treat my own kids if I ever have any.  At least that is something I won't have to worry about for a long time. 

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Not feeling so good

I am not feeling so good right now.  I don't know why.  It just started a few minutes ago before John and Jennifer left my apartment.  I feel sick to my stomach.  I guess it could just be indigestion, but I ate hours ago.  I just hope it passes soon.

Anyway, today was an alright day.  I watched Shaun of the Dead this morning.  John came over about half way through the movie.  It was really good.  It's a British comedy.  I doubt everyone will like it but I enjoyed it.  After it was over John and I watched the last half of The Long Kiss Goodnight on TNT.  It's also a pretty good movie.

When Jennifer got off work she came over and we went to eat at KFC.  I think that is what might have me feeling sick.  I'm not sure though.  After we ate we sat around my apartment for a little while and then decided to go to the mall.  We mostly just walked around.  Jennifer bought John a pair of pants. 

We wen to a sports and outdoors store called Dick's after that.  The selection there sucked.  It used to be Galyans, and they sold pistols.  I had my eye on one for my twenty first birthday.  Now they only sell hunting rifles and shot guns.  I'll have to look somewhere else. 

I bought some old rap cds from Circuit City.  I bought a Dr. Dre cd, a Snoop Dog cd, and an NWA cd.  I have not listened to them all yet.  I have not heard a lot of the songs in years.  It was weird.

When we finally got back to my place we sat around talking for a while.  We talk about just about everything.  Which is cool.  Niether John or Jennifer is uptight about things.  Still, I'd rather not know the details of Jennifer's last trip to the gynecologist.  Unfortunately for me when I said that she proceeded to give me a few choice details. 

In truth it doesn't bother me a bit, but this is someone else's wife.  But, oh well.  It's not like I don't get every detail of the sex life and everything else.  I joke about charging them for marriage couciling sometimes. I guess it's good that we can talk without worry to each other.  It is how friends should be.  Now, if I could find my own significant other to have worry free conversations with I'd be set. 


Friday, February 11, 2005

The Good

A very wise man once asked, "Does God love something because it is good or is it good because God loves it?"

Now, while this question was not asked in the context of the Judeo-Chrisitan God, it does apply to that God.  And so I will answer it in that context.

If we are to believe all the things about the said God then we must accept that the good is good because God loves it, not because it is good in and of itself.  That is the way the Christian God works.  God is all good, and therefore what he loves is all good.  God created light, and it was good.  Why?  Because God created.  Why else.  If God asked you to sacrifice your son to him, then you should obey, for God is all good, and the murder of your son is good as well.  Oh, and if you don't think God would ask such a thing read the story of Abraham's (Genesis 22). 

Now, God stopped Abraham at the last moment.  Nice of him, but he still tested Abraham.  If God had not stopped him, Abraham would have plunged the knife into his own son's heart.  That is faith in God.  To do whatever he orders without question and happily.  For God is the good.  If you cannot accept this, then you cannot accept God.  Abraham founded Judaism, and thus Christianity.  You should aspire to be like Abraham if you aspire to be a Christian or a Jew.

A picture

This is a picture I drew in pencil my senior year in high school.  It's probably the best drawing I've ever done.  I keep it framed and display it on top of one of my book shelves.


I've been busy as hell lately.  I brought a lot of my own stuff from home but I had to buy a lot of new things too.  I just finished unpacking everything last night. 

In the master bedroom I put my old dressor.  My grandmother bought it for me so it has sentimental value although it is pretty beat up.  I bought a new bed, a cherry wood sleigh bed.  It is very nice.  I also bought some new mattresses that are absolutely divine.  Now I just need someone to help me christen them.

I bought a new couch and coffee table (surface lifts up) for my living room.  I also put a futon in there.  I already had an entertainment stand and a tv, vcr, and dvd player so I bought a surround sound system.  I bought some dvd towers too.

My kitchen is pretty lightly stocked.  I have one plate and bowl of each size, some pots and pans, and some utensils, silverware and stuff like that.  I bought some glasses.  I have what I need.  I bought a small tabe for the kitchen and some bar stools for my bar.  I also bought a new washer and dryer.

The second bedroom I've turned into my study.  Two of the walls are lined with six foot tall book shelves.  I actually have some extra shelf space.  I spent nearly a week alphabetizing all of them.  In front of the window I put my desk from home (a cherry mission style I bought at WalMart a while back) and I put my new computer on it.  I also bought a filing cabinet for all of my paperwork, what I don't keep in my safe anyway.

For the most part living alone has been great.  I don't wake up to screaming and yelling anymore.  It's pretty nice here.  There is a pool that I will be spending a lot of time in this summer.  I worry about money sometimes, but I should have a job and steady income in the next couple of weeks. 

Speaking of a job, I'm all but on the payrole at WalMart.  I'm hired to work third shift, 10 at night till 7 in the morning.  It's the only time I'm available.  They know I have classes.  Yet they want me to do my orientation in the middle of the day.  Okay, I'm free on Fridays.   They know that too.  But they wanted me to do it last Wednesday.  Idiots!  I had an exam that day.  So I have to wait until the bitch in personel gets it straight.

On a better note, I bought a new car.  I traded in my silver 2004Honda Civic LX for a blue 2005 Honda Civic EX Special Edition.  It has a six disc cde changer, a sun roof, alloy wheels, a spoiler, etc., etc.  I like it.  It's really nice.  And it's paid for in full.

I do get a little lonely here sometimes, but it's no worse than being lonely at home.  I spent my time there secluded in my room.  Here at least I have rooms.  And satellite tv.  I'm thinking the new apartment might help with dating a little too.  I won't be afraid to bring a girl home.  That will be a change.



Monday, February 7, 2005

I'm back!

I'm back!  This time I'm in a slightly different journal with a slightly different email address, but I'm back for the time being.  I'm moved into my new apartment and I am loving it.  It's great to live alone.  Oh, it gets a little lonely once in a while, but other than that it is wonderful. 

I guess I've got a lot of catching up to do.  I droped off the face of the earth for a week or so.  I'm sure everyone will forgive me though.