Friday, January 7, 2011

I'm a sucker.

Every once in a while, when I'm well into my cups, I dwell on love lost.

I've loved two women.  Two.  No doubts about it.  Lost both to my own insecurity, stupidity, and...whatever.

The second helped me forget the first, and I keep hoping I'll meet the third to help me forget the second, and the first again.

But here is the part that bothers me, and kind of scares the hell out of me.  Either of those two, I'd still take in a second and damn the consequences.  I still love them both.  I believe I always will.  I don't think it'll ever be with ever, but when I sit here, all by myself, I can't help but wonder...

Deep breath.  And move on.

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