Saturday, January 29, 2011

Bitter and Mean.

Those two words describe me fairly accurately this last little while.  I have no real explanation why.  I feel like I'm not living up to my own expectations, and I guess I'm not.  Not trying hard enough, not putting forth enough effort, not taking care of myself the way I need to be. 

I'm not sleeping well.  I've had one good night's sleep in month.  The rest have been less than restful.  Bad dreams, barking dogs, feeling sick, staying up late for a lot of stupid reasons. 

Work is a major stress-er right now.  I can do well when the work it there.  Put it's sporadically there.  That's more than a bit annoying.  It's frustrating to not be able to predict what I'll be able to bring home from one pay check to the next. 

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