Saturday, December 10, 2005

Feeling real alone...

I'm feeling really alone right now.  I'm about to take a nap before going to work.  My grandfather let me borrow a car.

I keep feeling real scared.  I guess it's because I'm still scared that Stephanie could have been hurt when I had my accident.  I just want to see her and touch her and know that she is alright.  Maybe that sounds weird.  But I just want to give her a hug and hold her for minute.  I was so scared when they put me in that ambulance and I couldn't remember if she had still been with me or not.

I don't ever want to feel that kind of fear again.  I talked to her tonight.  I told her I wanted to get together sometime in the next couple of days just to hang out.  I just want to see her.  I still feel so afraid for her.  Maybe I just need rest, and I'll be okay. 

This has been really stressful, and it will probably only get worse. 


autumnsavril said...

You are going back to work already?  Damn, hon, give yourself a break.  I am away for a few days and all this stuff happens--bad, bad, bad!!!

Take care of your health, or else there will be no more you to take care of!

Much love,

rampage841512 said...

It's either work, or a cardboard box to live in next month.  I'm hoping to get sick time for some of the time I missed, but I have to get something from the hospital first.  They didn't give me anything at all, so I'll have to call them and see what they can do.